Well, I’m 20 y/o male going to a College part-time. I live at home with my parents, my cousin and older bro, Age 19 and 24 respectively. Recently there’s been a few changes. About a few months ago my oldest bro age 28 moved out of the house because his wife got into a fight with my other bros GF.
To make a long story short. my 24y/o bros GF was known to be a neighborhood hoe.
My parents didnt seem to care because she currently lives in our house hold.
I try not to talk to my bro and I don’t even say a word to his GF.
On the other hand me and my 19y/o cousin use to get along great until he moved in. He seems to be sighing with my 24 y/o bro since he is a bit older and drinks and goes out.
Yet the guy (my bro) has never worked a day in his life and in fact never graduated HS. And my mom supports his unofficial online jersey business.
Tonight I heard them drinking in the kitchen and they (My bro his GF and cousin) though I was sleeping. I heard my bro say, "I have an opportunity to leave and move into an apartment free of charge as long as I do maintenance around the complex. and I know if I go James (ME) wont even come see me but oh well screw me screw you he said.
In fact he is right, I wouldn’t visit him or even go looking for him. He has always bee against me ever since I could recall as a child. Any woo then I heard my cousin say, " Yeah he hasn’t experienced life or had a real job and done things on his own, he acts like he knows what hes talking about.
Its true, I have never really had an official job with a bi-weekly paycheck and I am a bit shy and reserved but, If I want something I don’t hesitate to go after it. In my house I am the only one with a 40"lcd tv a PS3 matching bed, tv and dresser set. a couch and beautiful hard wood flooring my Itouch, Iphone and netbook.
I don’t mean to brag but, how did I get all of this? Not from mommy or daddy, I did side jobs and paid for the things I have; I put in the flooring I painted the room I did it all!!!
I have a car and I have given rides to the lazy bum I call a brother since he has a DUI.
At home my parents treat me like a step child and I am neglected. I would be wrong to say it doesn’t bother me but, I am glad sometimes for a split second because it has made me a tougher person.
I have always been a giver and a caring person to my family… My bro needs a ride from a bar, my cousin needs a ride, clothes, money for food, baby sitting, emotional help.
My dad needs help with this or that, my mom wants this done. I help. I’m a helper, I’ve always wanted to help people….I give money to the poor, I help people in need, I’m the nice guy that finishes last.
I pray to god to guide me yet, I feel like I receive no answer, but deep down In side I can’t give up hope… my conscious won’t let me my faith won’t let me. I am not saying I’m prefect nor the best person in the world but, I’m tried of being a victim…
I don’t drink or smoke I go to school and I want to be successful, I have learned somethings from my bros mistake but I can only thank god and know one else.
I know this is life and many young adults have emotional problems or family problems.
I just don’t know what to do any more?… Lately I’ve just been feeling tired and uninspired.